Hook

Lord it’s
Time that I get focused
I stay on some bullshit
Cold shit
Warming up
Some old shit
No need for this
Old shit
Lord just
Keep my mental focused
Feeling like a orphan
Swear it’s like I’m
On my own
On my own

Bridge

We live
We love
We laugh
We cry later
My heart
It hurts
I know
Sooner than later
It to
Shall pass
My God
I gotta
Make it
This house
On fire
My heart
No home
I’m feeling
So alone
So alone

Hook

Lord it’s
Time that I get focused
I stay on some bullshit
Cold shit
Warming up
Some old shit
No need for this
Old shit
Lord just
Keep my mental focused
Feeling like a orphan
Swear it’s like I’m
On my own
On my own


Verse 1

Steadily on my own nigga
That cool nigga
Stay on his high horse
Thorough ass nigga
Still dealing out
All these looks nigga
Mask on
Flask out
Sip slow
Smoke you out
God body
Feeling like the devil
At his shoulder nigga
Overtime
Times up
Life’s hard
Man up
Lesson learned
Live it up
Road less traveled
Swear one of these days
I’ll let it all Out
Why not now nigga
Tried to edit
My thoughts
Fuck it all
Hear it all nigga

Bridge

We live
We love
We laugh
We cry later
My heart
It hurts
I know
Sooner than later
It to
Shall pass
My God
I gotta
Make it
This house
On fire
My heart
No home
I’m feeling
So alone
So alone

Hook

Lord it’s
Time that I get focused
I stay on some bullshit
Cold shit
Warming up
Some old shit
No need for this
Old shit
Lord just
Keep my mental focused
Feeling like a orphan
Swear it’s like I’m
On my own
On my own

Verse 2

October 4, 2019
Celebrated a birthday
Figuring out
A few things
The night before

A nice dinner
For many
To collect all my flowers
Beautiful garden
Of wise words
Flooded like showers
Headed to work
Feeling an intuition
A slight argument
With a friend
How in their mind
I’m missing
Forgot my birthday
Yet they say
It was locked in
Their planner
Already aggy about it
Told myself
Discuss it after
Then I got a text
From my father
Emergency
I rushed out the building
Speeding through traffic
Not worrying
Bout my own life
Walked in the ER
Searching for answers
My heart racing
Faster than any vehicle
NASCAR can handle
They walked in
Told me the news
My mother died
And for a good 10 minutes
Not a tear in my eye
Then I lost it
Soon as I stepped outside
Messages pouring hours later
I could not reply
Reply

Everything’s personal
Everything’s personal

Back to my past
To know exactly
Why it’s personal

Blood thicker than water
But that don’t
Make you family
Just related
With same names
Within ya family
I lost a lot
On the day
Of my birth
Feel like my life
Is a curse
Tell me
It couldn’t get worse
It couldn’t get worse
So tell me
How I’m selfish nigga
I’ll tell you
I’m lonely nigga
In a crowded room
Anxiety attacks
Consume a nigga
No I ain’t
Stand off ish
I just don’t bullshit
Wit bullshitters
One dap fake smile
Spitting small talk nigga
Interverted by choice
You niggas don’t need me
You hoes don’t deserve me
Fuck the sympathy
Fuck the empathy
Fuck whoever got problems
With me
And fuck whoever
Turned their back on me
It’s me against me
For eternity
Who’s learning me
Who’s bridges are burnt
From fucking up
With me
Who ain’t reciprocating
What’s due to me
Who made excuses
While giving condolences
Being selfish on some shit
Yelling out
That’s my bro and shit
While not being
My bro and shit
Which family member
Said they don’t text
As much but
Reach out
Well muthafucka
Guess that leaves me
Way out
I’m a rare nigga
I should be treated as such
Respected as such
If not
Then get the fuck out
Signing off
The illest muthafucka alive
Still tryna figure out
Exactly how a nigga survived
October’s own
But lost his own
Gah damn mind
Guess in due time
A nigga gon
Be alright
Alright

On my own
On my own